Foto's taken randomly from Google.com
Sebenarnya malas nulis keluhan tapi katanya kalau kita punya masalahan (keluhan) terus diceritakan ke orang lain, bebannya akan sedikit berkurang. Berhubung karena aku sekarang ini punya gak teman pas yang di ajak curhat (yang se kota) jadi mungkin menulis juga bisa jadi pelarian dan siapa tau juga bisa mengurangi beban.
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Istilah saya untuk minggu ini adalah "akhir bulan" walaupun pada kenyataannya setiap minggu adalah akhir bulan bagi perantau kere sepertiku ini. Kalau masalahnya cupa gak punya duit mungkin gak terlalu membuat pusing, tapi kalau udah masalah utang, itu yang buat kepala pusing sepuluh keliling. Menyedihkannya jadi orang yang udah dewasa (walaupun uang masih dari orang tua) adalah ngga bisa merengek pas minta duit (Padahal masih merengek).

“Salah sendiri sih, sok ngerantau! Kalau udah komitmen ngerantau harusnya bisa dapat beaisiswa dong!” Merepet ke diri sendiri.

Tapi kuakui sekarang udah lebih mature sih. Dulu pas SMP/SMA kalau telat dikirim duit langsung make up the story biar cepat dikirimin duit. Bilang kalau mau beli buku lah. Atau yang paling gak masuk akal ngga bisa makan udah seharian lah. Hahaha *nut* Tapi kalau sekarang udah lebih sadar. Lebih sadar kalau nyari uang itu ngga mudah. Alhasil pas gak ada duit cuma bisa ngasih tau aja, lagi gak punya. Masalah kapan dikirim, cuma bisa nunggu. Kadang kalau udah emang kepepet sampe nelpon beberapa kali. Kadang-kadang juga sampe nyeramahin diri sendiri, "lu bodoh ato gimana si Ri. Kalau ortu lo punya duit, dia gak nahan kali." Tapi disisi lain juga kebutuhan mau gimana lagi.

Coba aja Turkey bisa kaya dicerita-cerita orang yang udah pengalaman study abroad, yang katanya bisa kerja part-time lah. Sebenarnya yang punya niat tinggi buat kerja ada sih yang dapat kerjaan, walalupun illegal. Andai aja peraturan pemerintahnya ngebolehin pelajar kerja part-time misalkan 24 jam seminggu gitu, kan lebih gampang.

Kalau ceritanya udah gini jadinya pas akhir bulan (duit tinggal sisa), -sebenarnya akhir bulan gak melulu harus tanggal 30 atau 27 ke atas! asal gak punya uang aja!- cuma bisa gigit jari. Harus pintar-pintar punya mulut. Kadang-kadang sampe marah gak karuan sama perut sendiri "shut up, your f*cking appetite."

Ngakalin rasa lapar, mungkin itu yang harus diteliti secara khusus sama ilmuan (Jangan-jangan udah ada lagi). Soalnya sekarang juga kan banyak yang ngga suka sama rasa lapar. Contohnya itu tuh orang-orang yang mati-matian diet. Sebenarnya kasian sih sama itu orang, punya
uang untuk makan malah makan aja dipermasalahin. Kalau menurut aku sih kalau mau nggak gemuk ya jangan makan lemak semua. Seimbangi makan sayur, buah, sama makan yang berlemak. Sayur kan fungsinya buat merangsang perut biar BAB (ngasal, tapi kayanya benar deh). Intinya kalau BAB lancar nggak bakal gemuk deh!!!

Oke balik lagi, kalau udah kelaparan yang tahap lapar-selaparnya tapi belum jadwalnya untuk makan harus ngapain dong? Atau udah jadwalnya makan tapi takut kalau makan kecepatan ntar pas malam kelaparan lagi? Di asramku jam makan malam di mulai jam 4. Bayangin aja kalau makan jam itu pasti jam 9 malam udah lapar lagi. Terpaksa harus nunggu setelah magrib baru makan. Selama penungguan (pulang kuliah jam 3, berati nunggunya dari jam 3 sampe jam 6, alias 3 atau 4 jam-an) itu harus ngapain? Biar nggak kaya orang GILA yang mukanya kusut kaya gak disetrika (mana ada oarng gila mukanya kaya gitu ya. Orang gila mah senyum-senyum terus).

Kalau aku sih ngakalinnya dengan nonton. Lumayan sih kalau pas nonton, apalagi yang comedy pasti jadi lupa lapar. Ngga cuma komedi sih, tapi semua. Aku bisa dibilang movie addicted lah. Dalam seminggu bisa nonton beberapa film. Apalagi kalau musim liburan..  Setiap kali nonton aku merasa aku berada di dimensi yang lain, kaya di awang-awang. Kadang suka emosi sendiri kadang suka marah-marah gak jelas. #Exaggerated   
Ya begitulah nasib perantau. Kalau masalah gak punya duit itu masalah biasa, harus diakalin gimana caranya gak badmood pas lagi kelaparan.

*Welcome to my world*

Taken From Google.com
Apakah ku dalam Goa?
Sendiri, tiada makhluk berjalan,
Tapi, berisik itu darimana asalnya?
Seperti ku tahu mahluk apa itu,

Bukan, bukan jangkrik yang mengaung
Bukan juga ular yang mengais
Suara apa ini?
Aku yakin, aku tahu mereka..

Ia semakin mendekat,
Suaranya berada dimukaku.
Ia tidak mengoceh padaku,
Walau ia berada didapan mukaku

Sesuatu yang aneh di genggamannya,
Ia bersuara padanya.
Apa yang tidak ku punya?
Aku mampu berkata-kata


Kanapa Goa ku, asing bagiku
Aku pernah tenang berada disni
Mahluk itu berwajah sepertiku
Tapi ia alien untukku

Datang tak berucap
Berbicara dia tiada padaku
Lalu kenapa kau singgahi sangkarku?
Akankah kau jajah Goa ku?
Jangan renggut damai ku!


March 25, 2015
Turki



I don't want to compete with my master. Let me just put this photo. I assure you we both are equally handsome.
Am I okay? That's the question. I don't even know why out of the blue I'm writing this. Well, maybe this is the effect of being asked a question that really freaks me out. Not that bad, actually. I just too exhausted to hear that annoying question. "Why don't you have surname?" Sometimes I can’t help my self blaming my parents for giving me such this kind of name. I like to make up my name as I wished, such as when I was a boy scout troop, I amazed with Samuel Morse, -the one who invented Morse Code- and then when we were making uniform I wrote Samuel Adhari as my name. Everybody laughs me but I'm too ignorance to care about that trivial thing. It turned out I never wear that clothe due to my shyness for being teased.

Today I watched a reality show on youtube, actually that was one of reality show on Indonesian local TV but they uploaded on youtube. Today's Tv shows, most of them have oficial channel on youtube. A new trend, perhaps. Desi Anwar is the one who brings the show -I admit it she is one of those who inspire me.- On that show she is exploring Poland and at the end of the show there was a women. She can speak Bahasa, who shows how dissatisfied she is because Indonesian government who have not sent her gift yet. She was born on 17 August, which means her date of birth is similar to Indonesia independence day. According to what normally happens, everybody who was born on that day will be given miniature of Indonesian garuda watch. Her father had confirmed that to Indonesian government since she was small but that miniature had never come. She's so disappointed. She's still hoping for that moment.

Knowing that, I was so curious about myself whether any country in the world has the same date of independence with my date of birth. I didn't expect much, but when I found out no countries have Independence date in May 29, I got a little bit disappointed. I moved on to another cases. I looked up for persons who have the same date birth with me. Surprisingly I’m recalling what I knew long time ago, but with different sensation. Who, on earth, doesn't know John F. Kennedy? Yes, he has the same date of birth with me, just, he was born 97 earlier than me. I knew him because he was a close friend of my favorite former President, Soekarno. (But his daughter has really changed my mind about hime, even though she was former president too but I don't like her.) Well, I’m not sure whether they are close friend or not, that I knew is they both have met once or more, who knows. They have checked hand together, that’s the fact. So just pretend they are friend.

Not only that, I also know him from "Smart Book" which is “Buku Pintar” in Bahasa. That book gives me information about world big days. When I realized the author wrote about that I go straight to page which provides my date of birth information; people who was born at that particular time. And there was the time I knew we both have a lot in common. But I don't want to experience the tragic life like him, even though I love his figure. Deep inside here, I do believe he is a good man. Action movies proved that, good man is always ruled in tragic way. That’s ironic. People always campaign about “the better world” but when some good man wants to realize that message, there will be always bandits who stop his way.  

Okay, I thought everything has clear. Should I explain why I chose that title? Well, to complete this writing I will do that. I was disappointed with “surname problem” and I was once trying to search a new name. I have this kind of thought, -when I go back to Indonesia I will add my surname on my official document or I will completely change my name.- I came to some names like Adhari Winter Raher which means Adhari is the last son. But that sounds too awkward. My parents would laugh me for that.
But for this one -when I put it together this name sounds so ear catching.- (Hahaha) Moreover, word "Kennedy" has its own meaning in my native language. It means "As He Wants." That meaning is all me. I have the same philosophy with that word. I always say that, I don't want to be dictated by someone. So, I thought I found what I've been looking for. It is possible that you guys would see the changing of my name soon after I came back to my home country. Don't expect too much :D 

One other strange thing is, I have a childhood friend who has similar name to me. His name is Adha Konnady while my name is Adhari. It would be Adhari Kennedy, if I really did change it. Strange, right? But seriously I would use that name if I get a change to do it. Hopefully my family would accept it. :D :D

Monday, March  17, 2014